I Am Not My Hair

This is for the ladies.

I’ve had relaxed hair for about 9 years now and I have nothing bad to say about it except that…well….I could have bought a couple more Christmas gifts last year if I didn’t have to spend money to do my hair. My hair dresser….I love her dearly….charges according to the length of your hair and how much growth you have and let’s just say my hair isn’t short lol. So I’ve decided that sooner or later I’m gonna cut this thing. By the time though, I’ve had chance to think a lot about hair and what my hair means to me. I never thought that I was so attached to it until I made up my mind to cut it….then I started to freak out and panic.

So for a while now I have been couching myself, reminding myself that my worth is not in my hair. Well to God that is, there are a lot of young men that would not find me attractive anymore if I cut my hair. That’s not my assumption, they actually told me that I will be less attractive with shorter hair and quite frankly, that is true. The way the world has conformed our minds would make us believe that long and flowy is all there is to beauty. But I am trying not to care about that 🙂

Anyways so because of my focus being on my hair and so on, I noticed how much my appearance meant to me and how big of a distraction it could be at times. I would waste hours combing my hair and choosing what to wear and occupying myself with meager things when that’s not what is important. My mind ran on a verse the other that gave me a reminder.

1 Peter 3:3-4

3 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. 4 Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

You see…..what matters is who you are. Even if you look your best but you are the worst person and your spirit is far from God then trust me, personality will make you hideous. You are not your hair, you aren’t your make up or your dress size. You are your insides lol. What is in you is what matters most. And I have a great big secret for you……when you work on your inner beauty, your personality shines through the make up and dresses and hairstyles that you have. You aren’t beautiful just because you are wearing a sweetheart cut dress or because you’re wearing the styles that are in. You are beautiful when who you are adds radiance to what you wear.

Let’s focus on what’s important first and then dolls up after…k?

Blessings guys!

Golden Hearts

This is gonna be short. My level of sleepiness is adversely affecting my cognizance.

Alright! A lot of us believe we have hearts of pure gold and well… there are some of us that just don’t and are proud. This is for the golden hearts out there. I just want to know…..Is your heart really as pure as you want people to believe?

Speaking from experience here, with myself and other people I’ve observed. There is literally no way anyone can be all good all the time. We just don’t have that ability naturally and no, I’m not saying we’re all bad either. I’m saying that we need to be real with ourselves. I’ve heard countless people describe themselves as “a good person” and I always wonder what on earth that means. I usually assume they mean good as in not doing anything bad, this is in relation to their actions. And actions are fine but that’s not all there is to goodness, right?

As much as what we do is important, I know for certain that what we do….doesn’t necessarily define who we really are. Don’t you know any accountants that want to be a singer? Or Mechanics that want to be a lawyer? Do you always act out what you’re thinking? Let’s just say I don’t like ice cream but a friend of mine brings me some and I accept it…and let’s assume someone else comes and sees me eating it. Me not saying anything and the two people that witness me eating the ice cream may lead them to assume that I probably like ice cream right? But do I? No. So then what I am doing….doesn’t necessarily represent who I am in this case. So here is the connection, it is proven that we don’t always act on or say what we think…so don’t fight it but we can’t make a judgement about someone’s heart based on their actions. We can’t even do it based on our own actions and that’s basically what we do. We categorize ourselves as good because…well….we don’t DO or SAY bad or we just DO or SAY good. My point is, doing and saying is not everything. It is what is in your heart that matters.

Perhaps it would be better to say that we ourselves are gold plated 😀 and be a bit more realistic about what our insides look like. The only way I know for sure that you can truly have a genuine heart is from knowing THE one with THE MOST genuine heart ever. He is Jesus. I’m not saying everyone who doesn’t know Jesus is bad and that everyone that does is good….at all. I dare you though….If you want to see the different or rather…feel the difference, try Him. 😉

Bye bye. Totally should be sleeping. Have an exam in the morning 😥 Much prayers are needed.

NB: I thought this was going to be shorter….but meh…I ramble lol

Staring through mirrors

This is beautiful

Staring through mirrors.

From My Fragile Little Roller Coaster Heart

My eyes are wet with tears

My heart is heavy with fears

Thoughts flood my mind each day 

Yet there’s so little I could say 

I should have stopped it from the start

I should have saved my fragile little roller coaster heart

There is a world of hurt that I bare

Only with that one who truly cares

Many wounds to be healed 

Many yet to be revealed 

But my fingers must grace my lips 

Nothing must slip 

Expect the worst, you’ll never have another terrible surprise

Expect the best and your heart will lay next to a bed of lies 

But I 

I should have stopped it from the start

I could have saved my fragile little roller coaster heart 

Clear my mind, ease my stomach

Soon I will lay on havoc 

 

A Lesson to the Spiteful

So recently I had opportunity to witness something that I just found absolutely hilarious. The level of it’s comicality to me may be unnecessarily higher than it should be but 🙂 that’s ok.

Someone who had all intentions of spiting me had a huge back fire. I did nothing wrong, I know that for a fact but this person was just stubborn and difficult. Oh but the love of God in me 🙂 I made it through with my head and heart in tact. So now their very attempt has blown up in this person’s face and all jokes aside, it was totally uncalled for.

I have learnt though that being spiteful only hurts yourself the worst. One can never do a person what they did to you, it won’t hurt the same. Forgiveness is what is needed. It will heal you and confuse them. Even in my situation, I talked to the person and although I was wrongly accused, I encouraged the person to forgive me. Because it would be good for them. In this whole situation, I felt like I could have done something to spite them in return. I mean really, they thought I was just going to let them push me over like that? But I have grown to learn that it is always better to do what is right and not hold anything against anyone. I too had to let go and forgive.

Also, be careful who you spite and don’t let your emotions cloud your good senses. That is something that I have noticed not just this one but many persons doing. Just because you see things green doesn’t mean that it isn’t purple. Lol I don’t know if that made sense to you but sometimes we see things in a worse way than they are just because we are upset. Ease up! These things may just lead to you being bitter and spiteful for no reason at all.

Being spiteful is deadly, it is not healthy. Wear a smile on your face and forgive those who hurt you and be gracious to those that did not. Vengeance is the Lord’s isn’t it and I believe He can handle those who hurt you better than you can.